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Labyrinth into Menstruation

Labyrinth walk into Winter Menstruating

In the autumn phase I am reminded of the changing leaves and the withdrawal as energy focuses inwards.

Autumn can be a challenging time of navigating the emotional pulls from an outward phase to the inner self. It has the reputation of premenstrual stress as fluctuations in our body chemistry can be hard as we are oulled away from one direction to focus on another. These changes are totally unique to each one of us and even unique to each cycle. This is where my discernment comes in as we have skills in this phase to say without doubt “this is for me right now and this is not”. In this phase I start prepping the food stocks, getting the washing done. Proceeding mindfully though, so not to over do it as this is the phase that will have me asking for help. Useful to be informing our significant others of what we need and how we need it. For me this is when I can get far too hyped with the cleaning and the nesting until complete exhaustion and asking “what am I doing?” but I have already pulled out the sofa and got polishing the skirting boards.

Cortisol “stress hormone” can be testing constraints along with the progesterone level peaking so a heightened sense of security and monitoring comes in. This is responsible for hypersensitivity and everything just so. It is also worth considering that trauma responses and triggers are recognised here, this is the week I notice more than the other weeks in my cycle of my actions and reactions. PMS (premenstrual stress) and PME (premenstrual exhaustion), PMDD (premenstrual dysphoric disorder) can be related, in my opinion, to past trauma. Hyper security and hyper sensitivity are related to trauma responses. If you have stress exhaustion, dysphoria and a past history of trauma then this week needs tending. For me I signpost that this is exactly what is going on. That the thoughts and feelings are in hypersensitivity and hyper security levels, this is where tracking the cycle is needed so that it is charted and recognised, it is visible. Asking myself “what is it that needs addressing”, the root of this is key for me. It is usually something bothering me and once removed it feels ok. Just like any security issue, once the threat is removed, I settle. This could range from a request for me to act or be responsible for something. If I am able to pass it on to someone else, I feel better. But getting to that understanding is not in my “normal mind”. It takes a while. This is why the journal prompts are so useful to me. It allows the unseen in a situation, usually writing things down can lead to a flow of free writing which unearths the feels.

Physically at this time the progesterone peak is responsible for the ability for deep rest as it aids sleep so naps are helpful. Think of this as the resting instinct, it is a chemical response to our hormonal changes. As we are seeking to arrange our environment for things to be just right, yes Goldilocks was a cyclical being and aren’t folk tales just a form of storytelling from the elders?! This chemical change brings in hypervigilant and precision~to~detail functionality. So in the material world our projects and reports will be sharpened masterpieces when looked at this week. “The eyes of autumn are all seeing”. By that I mean there is no woolly hat over my eyes! We are all seeing, sensitive, intuitive beings but we have a limited amount of surplus energy diminished from summer reservoirs.  I need to be gauging my activity as well as providing nourishment for the body so self-care is on the top of my list. The body knows best and there is craving for the sweet stuff, if it is chocolate I look at the iron and magnesium requirements. This matches my craving for seeds, I love pumpkin seeds at this phase, minerals all the way.

Preparing for this phase in our lineage society when we get pushed outwards is tricky. When I am wanting my blanket and a book to cover my snoozing face the world keeps on with its expansive wants and needs.  I don’t have any answers here to change the system but what I can say is talking about cyclicity to our partners, family, friends and colleagues helps. When our others become aware of cyclical terminology of inner landscapes and changing requirements, it helps society. For me, listening to others’ observations was helpful as my autumn phases changed my home behaviour and my frantic cleaning and organising was an insight from those around me. When I feel so overwhelmed I need to explain what chaos is running in my mind and ask for help. It opened up for some helpful conversations and made the load lighter. I have no research to offer you about navigating here, but I know from my own patterns and behaviours and I am able to sit with my phases far more consciously since I have charted and observed myself. I have recognised that by consciously cycling I have been entering into perimenopause with more body awareness. Pushing against my biochemical rhythms is very much like hitting my head against the wall, literally. 

Enter into the Labyrinth

If autumn and winter are challenging this is where a journey mentality can be useful. It can be described as an inward and outward walk through the shadow. This is where a map such as a Labyrinth walk can be useful.  As we enter inwards, we go equipped, the aim is to uncover insight to bring back into the world. Labyrinths have been found in ancient cultures throughout the world from Egypt to Greece to South America and everywhere in between. A labyrinth is a single path or tool for personal, psychological and spiritual transformation. It is a metaphor for the journey to the centre of your deepest self and back out into the world with a broadened understanding of who you are, enabling you to move forward confidently and consciously.

If this time is especially challenging we can use the labyrinth as a guide. The journey starts with preparation, this is the beginning of the path inwards. It is seeing to the lists, the bag packed (see winter phase post) then as I bleed I am in the centre. I navigate out of the labyrinth as an exit from the winter phase. This phase is useful for me, to see the outward path visibly, to keep drawings of the labyrinth around my space so I know the Map and can see the navigation occurring. This is a journey to be done with an alley and if you don’t have a friend, a sister-kind to do this with, you can ask for a spirit guide, a Goddess, a deity or use an oracle or tarot deck. If you need an actual person on the other end of the phone, talk, ask them ahead of time.

I like to pick a crystal and some jewellery as well for this time as a  talisman. These have been used throughout the ages as a comfort, a companion, a good luck charm etc. Your talisman is something to carry with you and something that carries you throughout the journey so pick a symbol that is meaningful to you. And remember to cleanse and clear it after the journey.

The shadow aspect of our autumn phase is similar to the waning moon so think of your energy at this point. Taking a physical journey at this point may leave you feeling exhausted at the thought of it. But let the path unfold as the shadow side of this phase is where we find useful information, take my cleaning for example, no hoovering is going to make my space any safer. Releasing myself from overcommitted responsibilities does. 

This phase of the journey can be sketched, journaled and a well crafted endeavour, it will let you see that there is a beginning, a middle and an end to this part of your cycle. I spent years wishing the PMS and menstruation would end, I didn’t want the journey, I just wanted another spring to appear, now I appreciate the rest and sleep. Pacing myself is the key as well as an understanding that this week I will be slower and quieter than normal. 

A good place to start is always with pen and paper so here are the journaling  prompts for autumn and I wish you well on your journey into the labyrinth.

Journal prompts for autumn include;

What am I needing to clarify at present?

What is my current emotion?

How am I addressing this emotion?

What gives me comfort right now?

What am I worrying about?

What am I anxious over?

What feelings are prominent?

What is my body telling me today?

What can I cancel from my diary?

What can I communicate to my loved ones today?

What can I prepare today that my future self will thank me for tomorrow?


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6th Power, Climate and Brow Centre Meditation

This is a brow chakra meditation, I invite you in the way of the Magdalene energies to anoint your brow with plant essence in a safe blended oil and to use an indigo crystal if you have one to hand. The brow centre to me is the master centre of the endocrine system, the pituitary gland activation point, as well as the 6th chakra point, the Ajna of perception and knowing. It is the master messenger to the body of emotional health, responsive to all our thoughts and feelings as well as our beliefs and how we are seen, by ourselves and others.

This centre is super sensory, it connects to our healing capacity and belief in wellness as well as freedom, wisdom, knowledge, choices and transformation. It connects to our higher spiritual self and consciousness and the imaginal realms and soul vision. The brow is also in connection to our eyes, the inner vision, our ears and inner hearing and all self belief and thought processes of life and instinct from the outer world and the inner world. It is where we affirm our true worth and trust in our selves.

The crystals I mention are;

Lapis Lazuli, the crystal of self empowerment, the Goddess Isis, balances the masculine and feminine energies, clears the way for intuition and inner realms of inner knowing and higher perspective.

Dumortierite, focusing on a task to be fulfilled to completion. Reduces stress and an over active mind and mental exhaustion. Good for getting organised, for healthy motivation and seeking order and gaining clarity.

Kyanite, brings balance from the mind to influence the endocrine system, brings alignment to all systems, bringing you into your own natural pace and balance. Can be used on all energy centres. Helps with nervousness and helps clear thinking in uncomfortable situations, assists in all cognitive processes. Good for dream recall, intuitive recall and slows us down to process problem solving and messages from the brow centre.

Blue Sodalite, for calming and focusing a chaotic mind, builds creativity, brings a peaceful perspective to overwhelm and creates order and structure. Good for meditation and presence and cultivating stillness.

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Mary Magdalene’s Gospel the 6th Power

The 6th Power of Wrath is called foolish vision of the flesh or in Leloup’s translation intoxicated wisdom. This speaks to me in how we view ourselves as impermanent, and a distortion of the human aspect of the whole Self, and Eternity. A view of life that is cut off from the Creator, from Source. Here in the Gospel I feel it is referring to how the mind can distort or lead us away from our inner realm, instead the mind, the climate is a place trapped in thoughts. A climate of spiraling past events or focus on worries of the future.

Psychologist Carl Jung became a gnostic enthusiast he even came into having some of the scripts from the Nag Hammadi findings, and one of the scripts is now named the Jung Codex. It is mentioned that Jung had his own visionary experiences and could have influenced the work.

This centre brings me to the balancing of the left and right hemispheres, our analytical mind with knowledge and rationality as well as the imaginal realms speaking with clarity of truth and inner self wisdom. The awareness of these two elements of the mind as fully activated balance, I think the Gospel is talking about discernment of the inner vision as truth. She is presenting the intelligent knowledge and wise higher perceptiveness of inner knowing.

If we consider a balancing of the 6th climate and the brow chakra, this brings me to think of complementary challenges like the turning of the wheel. When I think of my negative aspects of self and then turn the wheel of this climate, I can see a higher perspective. Such as I am too shy and this makes me appear weak, if I complement this with the softness and gentleness of my nature, my shyness and appearance seems to dissolve into the gentle nature of my true self. I no longer believe so much in the negative but can consider a viewpoint of my shy, gentle, quiet characters within my world from Source and I accept myself integrating these characteristics for the soft, listening, calm centredness of my nature that I present to the world. My world view of self then comes from my inner self and not from the outside view of comparisons.

If we consider the location of the 6th climate and the chakras we are looking at the brow chakra, the Ajna, in Sanskrit. This is the centre of perception and of knowing, and again leads us to centre of discernment.

This takes us to balance right left hemispheres of the brain, masculine feminine and a foot hold into the next realm of unity, the bridal chamber, the two becoming one, the Nous, the realm of this world and the next, the realm of interconnectedness that She can now meet her beloved Teacher from realm to realm.

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Mary Magdalene’s Gospel – the 5th Power

We have reached the 5th Power from the Gospel of Mary Magdalene. In this climate we are looking at “the realm of the flesh” or in Leloup’s translation the “enslavement of the body”.

Here I look at the parallels of the 5th chakra centre, selfhood, expression and frequency. How do you express your individuality inwardly and outwardly?

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Love in 2023

I woke up this morning through my flulike stated and remembered that my spiritual awakening was 10 years ago. In 2013 I had a spiritual attunement, my first and I sobbed out the words “I want to go home”. When asked by my Teacher where was home, I explained where the energy is Love.
Today 10 years on the work within the energy field has been life changing, ecstatic, heart wrenching and overwhelmingly difficult, as well as physically intense. As energy workers for the want of a better label for what this is we do, the work is at times engulfing, consuming and isolating in the everyday. But more recently, I find more and more like minded, like hearted, soul resonating connections coming into my circle of friends from the most bizarre and wide walks of the world. And for this, my energetic support system, I am most grateful.
Some would say the challenges get more and more difficult or intense. This is the work of the spiral of this incarnation. And as more people recognise this pattern of spiralling upwards we assist each other, get the leg up, onto the next circle knowing it is of the benefit to all not just the one. This is how the energy of our planet evolves, sounds big, but without the witnessing of these times we feel more traumatised than released from a cycle. This is how we protect the Love for one another on this journey, through collaborative assistance, to maintain our trajectory . It is by being seen and witnessed by others who can see and hear the path and the weight of their coding that we all arise. This is why we have these connections from far and wide, from the most bizarre and wonderful reaches because we are able to function now from disconnection into connection. The distance between us allows more individual development whilst having this crucial backup team that can respond in times of need working from the inner heart of all consciousness. It is because we are spread out that we can gaze upon the other with more clarity. This is where the release of all judgement is felt because we gain access to our higher awareness from the distance. This helps both parties in the Love connection to be aware of the incoming frequencies, the feeling of the awareness of the other is part of all our energy healing to one another.
I have mentioned Love more than once and in this energetic support system Love is evident. The pure heartedness of cosmic Love is within all these connections. We see it in the world, but it is recognised deeply in these connections because nothing else stands in its way. These dynamic connections are unifying heart resonance over any other vibration. These connections have evolved within their own healing or development, call it trauma if you will. They have allowed the energy frequencies of the imprint or the out of body response to awaken to the Love evidence throughout the Universe through their striving to reconnect to themselves and have brought back into alignment, a balancing and rebalancing state of cosmic Love. Remember that love, that love I mentioned in the BEGINNING! I wanted that Love to come home to me back then 10 years ago and the Universal vibrations reached down, reached out and brought me vibrations from the sources of that love around the world.
Every shift in the energetic field of myself, my spiral placement, can bring me closer to the Universal Love I remember. For 2023 my message is this, release more, shift more into Love, by being Love, focusing on the Love in every moment of challenge. A question someone once asked was what to think in times of need, my answer was to ask yourself “What would Love do?” in all moments ask “What would Love do!”.

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Heart Centring Practice

This is a short description and meditation on the Heart Centring Prayer Practice. I invite you to sit with me in meditation and anoint of yourself with a plant essence you have to enter into your heart with the energy of the Magdalenes.

In the next video we ascend to the 5th Power, the Realm of the flesh, the enslavement to the body.

4th Power Essential Nature

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In this session on the 4th Power of the Heart from the Gospel of Mary Magdalene, I talk about the essential nature within the Heart. The words within the Gospel call for a return to Silence. I also bring in the Heart Centring Prayer Practice as taught by Cynthia Bourgeault.


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Meditation from the Heart

Join me for a meditation into the heart. This is a short meditation, so have your essential oil or plant based anointing oil or lotion to begin.

This is a journey to release anything you no longer wish to carry from within the Heart.

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Power within the Heart

This is session 6 of the Gospel of Mary Magdalene. Here I talk about the Fourth Power called Eagerness for Death. This is described as the exhilaration within the heart from the perspective of the Ego and the ascending Soul.

In this session I mention authors Jean-Yves Leloup (translation and commentary on the Gospel of Mary Magdalene) and Meggan Watterson (Mary Magdalene Revealed). The Fourth Power takes us into anger, rage, and desire and the release of the soul, the intersection of the Powers ascending.

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Mary Magdalene The Third Power called Ignorance

The Power of Ignorance

In this video I discuss the dialogue of the Soul. To me this passage in the Gospel is a pivotal part, as the releasing or dissolving of the Ego. Here I feel that Mary is describing Ignorance as the not know aspect of Self, a dissolving into Consciousness, the ascending of the Soul. The final words in the passage to me, say that it is a release of “those belonging to earth and those belonging to heaven”. How does that sentence then change how we view death?